why i am a bad conversationalist
i thought of some really good things
to say to you today
but i didn’t write them down
because i didn’t want to have to explain
what i was doing
to the people i was with
in the small confined space
of a moving car
where there is no escape
if you mispronounce a word
or punch someone in the face
or in the gut
really hard
by accident
and now i can’t remember
what i wanted to say
the way it was
i can’t get the phrasing right
which is important
because i was planning on turning it
into a poem
after i said it to you
once i had your response
and i think it would have been a good poem
but i will never know for sure
it will be like spiritual salvation
or how i feel when i am in a room with a person
terrible
my brain does not tell my voice box what to say