together we feel something that feels like
feeling sad in a calm and acceptable way
when we’re lying in bed
so i say things like,
"run runy fast little bitty buffalo-lo"
and
"did i turn the giant deadbolt that keeps other humans from getting into the apartment at night or did you"
then later maybe,
"i feel tired but i don’t want to fall asleep and i’m not sure why"
then when your breathing changes i say things like,
"i love you"
and
"i’m not sure if i want to continue being alive"
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